I have found that these past several years with the Esoteric Order of the Golden Dawn to be a harsh test of my perceptions, character and moral fiber. What does that mean, exactly? Simply this: do I walk my talk?
For me, I had to make a choice: hold on to my Ego and justify it at all costs, or, take a breath and step back to look at the larger lesson behind the situation and make the right choice applying what Na Kupuna (my Elders) taught me about Unity (Lokahi), Family ('Ohana) and Unconditional Love (Aloha). Let me say that I surprised myself entirely in the position I now find myself in today, but given a replay, I would act in the same manner for the same reasons. My devotion to Divine Mother Isis is what called me to her Temple. I pledged my Spirit in service to Her at my 0=0 initiation, and it was a pledge for life. With every day from that first day, I have lived my perception of the Great Work through continuing my studies and participating in Temple and community projects with a joyful heart ... and the rewards continue to nourish my soul.